Please contact me if you have a grief related book, site, blog, etc. I will include your information when I post the blog tour this week.
January 26, 2009
December 1, 2008
August 7, 2008
June 19, 2008
Grief, One More Journey in Life
In my habit of reading blogs of other’s who have suffered the loss of a loved one, I am reminded again and again of those early, deep and entrenching emotions. In today’s society where many want to just “get through it” or get it over with quickly, no matter what IT is, grief is just a process that takes its own time. It has its own agenda, based on you, the individual. No amount of prodding, sweet talking or ranting will make it move any faster through your life. The good news is, it does move on and we become a different person, and we can control the process, to some degree. We can seek help, support, and remain open to life. Through my four years of “widow” experience, I can attest to the fact that life does take on a new normal, as long as we don’t shut down and close in upon ourselves.
I am sorry for the loss anyone suffers in life. It’s not fair, we rant and cry, and I recall like it was yesterday the lost, desperate feelings. For a time I buried myself in my grief, my loss, and in the end I found that talking about it to a professional really helped me sort through my feelings, fears and emotions. I wasn’t going crazy, even though at times it hurt so bad I didn’t know which way to turn. I also started a journal, and if I felt desperately unhappy, I would write in my journal. So cry, be angry or just stare out the window if that’s what you need to do today, but don’t be stuck in it day after day. I learned in the beginning to get through each day as best I could, with no expectations of anything. It’s just the way grief is. Take your time to naviagate this new life, and you may find, as I have, that keeping your arms and heart wide open to life, will bring you unexpected joys and experiences. Trust me, there is life after loss, it just takes a bit of traveling to get there.
June 1, 2008
May 7, 2008
March 13, 2008
Keeping Grief at Bay
Elaine Williams copyright 2008
After my husband’s death, I enclosed myself in an emotional shell. A hard cased, untouchable cocoon of nothingness. I wanted to be numb, I wanted to be left alone. Many days my self-imposed prison made me want to be loved by someone. Some days I lived and breathed by rote. God kept me breathing when maybe I took that for granted. It sank in one morning when I woke and asked myself what do I do with the rest of my life. I decided I probably had another forty years to go. Where do I go from here?
I felt an overwhelming disinterest in life and living. I had three boys, so I put one foot in front of the other and took care of the things that needed doing. My kids were my first priority. I was and am so blessed to have them. And yet, I felt bad that they lost their father. My youngest was ten, and I just wanted to fold up some days and hide in a corner for sadness. But I didn’t. I decided, subconsciously, my children needed me more to be straight and unbroken then I needed to crumple.
I avoided people sometimes because I didn’t want to talk about and therefore confront my grief. I didn’t know who I was anymore, now that I was alone. And I felt very alone and isolated, even from family. Isolating myself, I just wanted to be left alone. Sometimes others didn’t know what to say. It’s just the way it was.
I read with gratitude the cards and letters friends and family sent. Many of them wrote about how much my husband had meant to them, and expressed their sorrow at his passing. Those were the letters that meant so much.
I understood acquaintances awkwardness with my grief, but there was nothing I could do, beyond trying to alleviate their unease with my own sense of caring.
Gradually I grew into my life, a new life where I carved a niche for myself. Over time, I grew to enjoy living again. Some days when I thought I had progressed so very far, I would suddenly go into a depressive state of mind. I hated when that happened and tried to think analyze why it happened, but some days it just came unbidden and pulled me down.
At about three and a half years after my husband’s passing, I began to feel a noticeable lightening of my spirit, as if I’d suddenly found new purpose in my life. I had been doing some dating, and had reached the point where I decided to empower myself by not dating men who were not in the same space mentally and emotionally as I was.
By four years, I knew I had made it on my own this long, I would continue to be alone until the right partner came along. No more rushing into dead end relationships. My writing career took on new life, giving me a sense of purpose once more. I truly began to enjoy my life as I developed new friendships and took on interesting job endeavors.
The little whine inside me that protested my circumstances, became quiet and almost content. Somehow, I had skipped over some milestones in the last several years and made my life my own. I am proud of myself for where I have gone and where I will go. It’s been an interesting journey, and totally unpredictable, a journey I expect to get better with each day.
In the Midst of Grief
When you’re in the midst of grief, some days something as simple as the words of a song can touch you very deeply and bring the tears of memory to your eyes.
March 11, 2008
New Book Reviews for A Journey Well Taken: Life After Loss by Elaine Williams
I am posting the latest book reviews for “A Journey Well Taken: Life After Loss.” Some of them were received via email. At this point I have about 22 positive reviews on the book, which will be available June 2008.
“I enjoyed your book! It’s obvious that you’re a good writer and it’s a heart-felt story.”
Diane Brandon
Integrative Intuitive Counselor & Intuition Teacher, Speaker
Author of “Invisible Blueprints: Intuitive Insights for Fulfillment in Life”
http://www.dianebrandon.com
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“The book is good and I am sure that it will be quite helpful to early/young widows.
It is also a quick read – which is also a good thing as something complex was certainly beyond me during those early years and I know this is the case for many women. As well, you do catch some of the nuances of widowhood – nuances which can only be brought to light by one who has been there. Best of luck with it.”
Mie Elmhirst PCC, MBA, Widow’s Life Coach
http://www.widowsbreathe.com
“I related to so many things you shared in your book. I’m encouraged by how you have uncovered your own inner strength through your journey. I hope and continue to pray that God will reveal his purpose for your life as well as my own. I’ve been drifting since my husband’s death in 2004.
After, 28 years of marriage with my junior high school sweetheart I have felt totally alone and lost even with two grown children and three wonderful granddaughters. One of which was born following my husband’s death in 2005 and now carries his name forward. It’s just not the same. It was very helpful to know you have walked through the challenges and you are moving forward by taking new steps every day. Blessings to you and thank you for sharing with me. So, many will be blessed and encouraged by reading your book.”
Karen White
Widowed 2004
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“We have some things in common when it comes to the subject of grief and it feels as though I know you after reading ‘A Journey Well Taken: Life After Loss’. I admire your willingness to be open and vulnerable — I’ve seen pain and loneliness in there too, and you talk about that openly.”
Fred Frank, Owner Comfort Music and
http://www.growingthroughgrief.com
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Testimonials Received via email
“I just want to say that I read your excerpts of your story and I found it so touching and inspirational. I found it by accident, as if I was led to it. I lost my husband suddenly and have experienced all that you mention as far as grieving. Just recently my mother was diagnosed with esophagus cancer, and has elected to try radiation. She is a two-time survivor of cancer. So what I’ve read so far, in your excerpt from your book, is very informative, and so touching. Thank you for sharing it.”
Steppingstone
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“Thank you so much. . . it helps somehow to know what you’re feeling is normal and that you’re not alone with those feelings. The more stories I read the more I realize
I’m not going crazy, but that I’m grieving. You have taken so many words right out of my own mouth. Any help on healing is a welcome in my life.”
Bonnie S. widow of 3 years
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“I really enjoyed reading your book. I just wanted you to know I feel some of your pain. Thanks again for writing your book and may God bless you.”
Polly R.
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“Thank you for sharing your story with us. You are very strong and give me courage.”
Nicole
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“I was looking on the web for information to help my mom who was just widowed a month ago. I ran across your story. As I began to read it I got goose bumps. I knew your husband had esophageal cancer as soon as I read about his burping. My dad just lost his battle with that horrid disease. We also tried many alternatives because he also felt he wouldn’t survive the traditional approach.
My heart goes out to you. Your husband was way too young to be stricken down by this disease. Your children should have been able to have their dad much longer. He sounded like a good man. I am sorry that you weren’t able to grow old together, as I am sure you planned. My dad was 76, full of life, a great husband, father, and grandfather and interested in everything. Even though we know he lived a full life we thought he was too young, but we are all grateful for having had him that long. . . my mom misses him like crazy. Thanks for sharing your story.”
Cathy B.
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“I am a 47 year old woman and just lost my husband 30 days ago today suddenly from cardiac arrest. Finding and reading your excerpt tonight is truly a blessing and has brought me comfort in knowing that I’m not alone. What you’ve put into words describes so much of what I’m feeling inside. I will look forward to reading more of your journey that is only beginning for me.”
Patti W., widowed 1 month
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“I was very moved by your story. Like you, I also lost my husband suddenly to cancer and believe that although we move on and stay strong for our children, our hearts never really heal. I read the first part of your book to my best friend last night who stood with me and went with me to chemo with my husband. The tears rolled down our faces as we shared in your grief.”
Miriam B.
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“I’ve just finished reading your story. My Dad, my Mom’s partner for 38 years, died. . . the past 2 months have been, as you can imagine, very, very difficult. I was looking online about what a person goes through when they lose their life partner. I want to understand what my Mom is going through that she may not be able to express. I also wanted to find something that would maybe encourage her, and give her hope.
Your story touched me so deeply… It brought me to tears. (I had to close my door and just take the time I needed to read your story in its entirety.) Thank you for taking the time to write your story… Please know you’ve touched a life today.”
Jeanette P.”I just want to say that I read your excerpts of your story and I found it so touching and inspirational. I found it by accident, as if I was led to it. I lost my husband suddenly and have experienced all that you mention as far as grieving. Just recently my mother was diagnosed with esophagus cancer, and has elected to try radiation. She is a two-time survivor of cancer. So what I’ve read so far, in your excerpt from your book, is very informative, and so touching. Thank you for sharing it.”
Anon
Inspirational Grief video at The Light Beyond
http://www.thelightbeyond.com/movie.html
This is a beautiful and inspirational movie with a wonderful soundtrack, found at thelightbeyond.com. The website also has a lot of helpful information and links relating to grief, loss and bereavement.